where will i find the sweet bean buns?

what will i miss and what won't i miss when i leave here? it's hard to imagine how i am going to feel, if this experience has changed me or my perception in any way. i did notice i have been thinking about how to dress up my dog when i get home, and have gone in my first doggie boutique. i have begun to try to figure out where i will find the ingrediants for oden and onigiri, where can i get fresh fish, what kind to feed my kitties. where can i get kombu, and is it as good? where will i find the sweet bean buns?
whenever i return from a long trip in india, it takes me months to re-adjust to life and in some ways i am permanently changed. tokyo feels a bit like home, because it's somewhat "americanized" still, it's hard to know.

things i think i will miss
-definitely the food. noodle houses, sushi, the luxury of having good food at any time, anywhere. and the sweets here have totally stolen my heart. curry noodles and curry rice are things i never heard of until i came here, some of my favorites. where will i find the hot buns stuffed with sweet beans?
-the clean people, the clean streets. people bathe daily and wash the heck out of their streets in the wee hours each morning when i'm walking to the studio at 4 am.
-the way everyone and everything is organized. they wait in lines to get on trains, line up the left sides of escalators and always leave the right side for folks who want to climb up. there are lines for everything, and no one ever seems to get mad about anything
-the yoga students. as i have said many times, they are the hardest working, the kindest, and by far, the most respectful i have ever met. it makes my job a breeze and a joy.
-some of the music. although i don't like all of it, i do enjoy the rock and the jpop stuff.
-the shopping. you can get the most original things to wear, or for your house, or whatever. they have the best selection of shoes by far i have ever seen, the coolest clothes (as well as some of the worst) and anything goes as far as fashion is concerned. people know how to dress. and they have amazing hair, too.
-the weather. it's been very mild. just frequent rain, i can't really complain.
-the lack of crime. i can walk anywhere alone at 4am and not worry. no one seems to steal here, either.
-the clean-ass bathrooms, hot toilet seats, deep bath tubs

things i think i won't miss
-crowds. way too many people. the trains are a drag to ride between 5pm and 1am. and 7am to 10am. the streets are so full of people it's very hard to walk at a decent pace. especially when it rains and the umbrellas come out.
-the restaurant hours. you have to eat lunch between noon and 3, dinner after 6. and bars don't open until 730 pm.
-organizing garbage all the time. it's great that they recycle like mad, but hard for foreigners to throw out trash properly. there are barely any garbage cans anywhere, so sometimes you can be stuck carrying a cup for miles.
-hot cones, hot trains, hot busses, hot hot stores, hot restaurants.
-the coffee. pretty weak everywhere except for starbucks, which i hate having to support just because the coffee is strong and they have real cream.

those lists are kind of superficial, but that's how i feel right now. will i ever come back? in a new york minute if i get invited to teach again. to just vacation, it's not possible because it's far too expensive to stay here. it would be nice to see the rest of the country, but i wouldn't dream of returning unless i get the language down. it's not a very english friendly country, unfortunately. something to keep in mind if anyone out there plans on coming here. not like india, where english is one of the main languages.

but japan is cool, and i highly reccomend it.