reality is never what it seems to be

it's always interesting to me to see that things are never what they seem at first glance. it's easy to perceive moments a certain way and later find out the reality is nothing close to the perception. and as many times this happens to me, it continues to surprise me, throw me off. whether it's getting to know people, or trying to understand a culture quite foreign to your own, or expectations of situations. i know this all sounds a bit vague, but i would rather not reveal the details of these situations publicly. one thing for sure, people are rarely what you think they are. i think most of us hide behind a persona. and the ones who do not really affect you quite deeply, almost in a spiritual way, because it's so hard to find. i often feel like people are only pretending to like me. and it would be much easier if they were a bit more confrontational, as much as that can hurt, at least you know where you stand, and it's easier that way. i like people who say how they feel, what they really think. not pretend to be a certain way only to say quite differently behind your back, only to find these truths out later from someone else, yet the person does not have the guts to say it to your face. most of us are guilty of this. but the ones who really impress me and ultimately become my role models are my friends or "friends",or acquaintances, who put it right out there in black and white without hesitation. my main yoga teachers have done as this as well as a few strangers and friends and even though it stings, it has made me a better person, a changed person, and way more respectful of them. and i really appreciate it, criticism is a very good thing, as long as it is constructive and not done to intentionally harm, although you sure do take your chances when you speak your mind, good or bad. we all have opinions and if open minded, there should not be any hard feelings. how i wish the world were like this. everything would be so much easier. because i feel that there is far too much drama that is created, it is completely unnecessary and a waste of energy.
i apologize if i lost many of you with my philosophy. it's just how i'm feeling at the moment.

are hair extentions the answer?

another day of takoyaki, our favorite osakan street food. found a stall down a small alley near harajuku with 8 types of sauces, we got the one topped with ikura (fish eggs). this is a soft battered octopus fried briefly like little pillows of love, delicately topped with white and brown sauces you pop in your mouth and they are more than delicious. and i'm sure there is no way we can get them in chicago. god i will miss those. osakan food is a bit different from the tokyo food. and it is damn good.

i also am completely bored with my hair and want hair extensions in various colors, but also need some color on my own and a trim. the final price would cost me about 250,000 yen, a whopping US$2125.00, which lasts about 2 months. um, can you say "i'm not paris hilton?" suck. cause my hair is not growing fast enough and by the time it gets to the length i want it, i will be 65 years old looking like one of those hippie ladies hanging out in mysore doing astanga. some things in life we can not have, i guess. i also thought of shaving it bald and getting my head tattooed. something completely different. japan kind of does that to you. what can i say. maybe i can have a benefit for lisa's hair extensions, with yoga performances, local bands, and break dancing.

yoga was lovely, i am back to my full practice and am delighted to be able to start at 4:30am, enough time for my pranayama and full slow practice with a little meditation. it felt hard, i feel like a lead balloon, but still lovely. i know i need to go on a serious fast, but it will have to wait until i leave japan. the food is just way too good, and i introduced jeff to the crepe today, so...

i noticed while practicing that i was thinking about how everyone works so hard when they practice, no matter their levels, and it made me work harder. thank you, tokyo-yoga. you are inspiring me not only as a teacher, but as a practitioner.

the ultimate adult playground

saturday we spent 12 hours walking around most of tokyo. after daikanyama, after the diner (E24U) we went to "OUTLET" the weird place where you can buy all kinds of cheap strange things. i invested in really neat chopsticks with little froggies and piggies on them, shoelaces with posh kitties, stickers, a voice changing microphone that makes you sound like baby, robot, old man and boy, a monkey lighter that lights out of his head when you drop his arm down, an eyeball popping ashtray, frog and pig trays, a pig yoga towel, a bamboo money tray for the studio similar to the ones you put your money on when paying for items here in japan, some iron on kitty patches for my yogi toes rugs, and some other fun items, but, unfortunately because of space, we passed on the electric crawling hand, lava lamps, mushroom stools, whale mouth kitty houses, and the "choke a chicken" that "bawks and squaks" when you squeeze it's neck. off to ebisu, where jeff found a dried fish snack joint where they gave us natto tea, which was pretty good, considering i do not really like natto, and thinking we were going the right way, ended up almost in roppongi, and then ayoyama, omote sando, harajuku, shibuya, etc. walking off the food we ate throughout the day, including one of those noodle shops that you have to buy a ticket out of a vending machine (this is pictured above) turning it in, and getting your ultra cheap noodles-420 yen, around 3 bucks. something else i've been too intimidated to do until now. we ended up at taco derio of all places, i've been wanting to try japanese mexican food for some time. and it was good, not authentic, but good anyhow. i had a quesidilla and jeff had a meat taco, but there was no explanation as to what "meat" it was.

sunday we met katzu at the local czechoslovakian diner that serves eastern european beers with wedges of brie cheese, and he took us to shinjuku so jeff could spend a couple hours in airs, a 5 floor bootleg store visited by famous rock stars from around the world, their autographs sporting the walls throughout. first floor was basic rock cds, then rock dvds, then heavy metal and hardcore on floor 3, movie/dvds on the next floor, and 5th floor full of kiddie porn and piss and fetish vids. then off to takashamaya, the massive food court below shinjuku rail station. and back to respekt, the local hang out where we will have our sayonara party in a couple weeks when i leave this place.
we got some good bootleg 60s vids that included the monks and some other old german punk bands,old stones, the seeds, question mark and the mysterians, arthur brown, among others, as well as some rare cds-new york dolls live in new york from 1973 and a great stooges bootleg from the recent reunion tour. the packaging being the real three stooges. tokyo is the ultimate adult playground.

my mysore classes are doing very well. i've been adjusting between 20 and 30 people in 3 hours every day, and what this is doing is making me a much better, stronger, more accurate teacher. i can't believe how fast i can put students into supta kurmasana and pasasana now. and i can drop back anybody, any size, any shape, any stiffness. i used to marvel at senior teachers like lino who could do that so quick and with such precision. now i know what it takes. doing it over and over and over and over again. this is really a training ground for me, japanese yoga teaching bootcamp!
today when i was teaching, i was feeling very grateful for this experience, because it is truly a gift from above, and me thinks i must have done something good in a previous life to deserve it, cause it sure can't be this life!
anyhow, i love japan, i love the students that come to me for help, both here and in chicago and all over the world. i am so incredibly blessed.

and on top of all of this, my teaching partner bill, who is returning from kovalam today, has picked up the absolutely perfect gift for the new yoga studio, which, coincidentally, is also in tokyo-yoga...siva in nataraj!

spike and us

spike and us, originally uploaded by bindifry.

here is spike from supersnazz. she remembered us from a couple years ago when we shared a taxi in goa. she was shocked we knew about her group in the US. they are awesome!

rock and roll night

just a quickie post because i don't have my computer on me. last night was tremendous, and my first live music experience in tokyo. the club was in a deep small dark basement. 5 bands played in 2 hours, which is normal because the djs come after, lucky for me because shows start around 6 or 7, very sensible for me. the first band was the romaines, an amazing 3 girl band doing ramones covers, with black leather jackets, and the perfect joey ramone stance. i loved them so much, but i love the ramones, one of my favorite bands of all time. the second band was the nou, all boy band, one of the best bands of the night, locally very popular. the third was scum city, not my favorite, tended to have their shirts too unbuttoned and eventually completely off. a little on the emo side, which is not my thing. the 4th was the mas melo, a 2 girl guitar and drum duo which kicked ass, and then the big headline, supersnazz! i can't believe we finally have seen them, and got our pictures taken with spike and jeff gave tomoko the song that was written for her. it was so fun. and i have some very good pictures from the show because i squeezed my fat american body right to the stage where the energy is always the best, and made dancing friends with a famous dj who kept leaping on the stage all night long. katzu joined us, as well as a guy named dan who we had met a few days ago and mentioned the show, and he actually showed up. he is from LA and has moved here 3 years ago because tokyo is the best city and he loves it. all you have to do is learn the language, and your set. if you teach english here, the pay is good and there are plenty of jobs. the government pays you, so the benefits are good. it's so tempting. after the show we went to a wild conveyer belt sushi joint, and jeff ate raw horse. he will eat anything, and the world loves him because of it.

today we are in daikanyama again, but this time we have found some truly amazing things, like this 50s style bondage cafe with about 150 snoopy dolls in the window, old fashioned dart boards, a great antique pool table, a front end of an old oldsmobile hanging above the bar, lava lamps everywhere, snoopy fans on each table and all the tables decorated with old bondage and sex pictures, postcards, magazines, etc. and a las vegas book in kanji. underneath is another unbelievable store called outlet, which seems to be a continuation of the same stuff as this memorabilia cafe. we saw a totally un-pc little baby doll smoking a cigarette with a pack of "little smokes" and all kinds of games and weird plastic jungle guitars that play animal sounds, god, i can't even remember what else. i'll have to let you know after we enter the extravaganza. today we have to stay out of our place from 8am until 8pm, so i think we will probably walk to shinjuku and try to find the loft, another club that a sun ra type of band that is very popular is going to be playing at in february called osaka monaurail, a huge funkadelic band that we heard if you close your eyes, you can't tell the difference between them and james brown's band. how cool is that?

antique manekineko

a wonderful night with my favorite person in the world-katzu, and jeff, same place we really like, respekt, the internet and western inspired lounge with good music and great staff. i spent most of the evening fawning over poor katzu, embarassing him, cooing over him. it's just that i do not meet people like that very often and i can't help myself! he's amazingly generous, kind and considerate. also very fun and has one of the best personalities i've ever known. sorry, katsu, that i'm announcing my feelings publicly, but that's just the way i tend to write.

got to wake up at a luxurious noon!!! today, and off to shimokitazawa again for eats and shopping. i found an antique japanese toy shop that blew my mind totally. thousands of old japanese toys, 45 rpm records, albums, dolls, kitch, robots and amongst all of this stuff, my manekineko!!! i've been searching for the "lucky cat"-you know, the one with the raised paw that is in all japanese restaurants, but i do not like the new ones with the right paw raised. they do not have the same character as the antique ones. cheesy, not much attention to craftsmanship. the story behind that one is a long time ago, a man who had a business that was doing very poorly and could not feed himself was visited by a hungry kitten, so he fed it even though he could not feed himself. and his business began to boom. at least that's the story i have heard. so the manekineko, or the lucky cat, has become a sort of "god" here in japan. the raised paw is to lure customers into the shop. it's a tiny one, but absolutely beautiful and i am very happy to have an antique one for my yoga studio. which will be indian and japanese inspired, with the curtains in japanese printed fabrics (julie-maybe you can help me with that one?) the kitty has a history i am not aware of. perhaps it sat in a ramen shop in shinjuku in the 1950s! who knows!

and we played food roulette, which means just pointing to a line of words and wondering what food you will receive, since there were no pictures or english anywhere. i ended up getting a kick ass sandwich with cheese topped with an over easy egg! i like that game! shimokitazawa was like a dream come true for jeff, because it's filled with used record stores, punk clubs, dvds and cds, not to mention an amazing amount of hat stores, something i also am very much into. there's nothing better than a good original hat collection!

tonight we are going to "lush" a rock club 5 minutes walk from the apartment to see supersnazz and the romanes, an all girl tribute to the ramones. supersnazz is also a girl band, one of the members we had met in goa a few years ago and shared a taxi with, and the bass player, tomoko, had a song written about her by our friends the returnables (the lead singer was killed a year ago when a girl tried to commit suicide by ramming her car into his-and i used to play in a band with his wife). so jeff is making a cd of this song to present to her at the show. and only 2000 yen entrance fee, not bad, not bad at all.

we have to be out of our apartment from 8am until 4 tomorrow because it's used for another business. it's not hard to figure out what to do. ginza, akihabara, shinjuku, kichijoji, ueno...easy to waste 8 hours. i can't wait. another 3 weeks to go and i'm finally home. and finally beginning a brand new life with astangayogachicago.com!

beard papa

another intimidating sweet stall located on one side of the shibuya station was beard papa'a sweets-since 1952. it's so silly to be intimidated by goodies like sweets, and i've been eyeing them for months. they have only a few, maybe 3 kinds to choose from. i just pointed at the gigantic poster of the flakey pastry with custard flowing out of it like a waterfall. most of the time posters such as this one are an exaggeration of the real thing. and for 102 yen, i pointed at it, and it came. i hid in a corner, unwrapped the goodie, and bit down into paradise. light custard oozing out from every direction, like shibuya crossing. and i know i must go again. and again. and again. there are no sweets like this in chicago.

we ventured into muguinbo, an amazing udon shop in the mark city building next to shibuya station. i was taken there my 3rd day in tokyo and was able to locate it and take jeff for the best udon. and off to the best and cheapest food and liquor store in a small alleyway in that same area where we tried to buy the same shochu we had the other night. it's hard to know how to choose sake and shochu because the labels are strictly in kanji. so we took a chance on relento, one that was supposedly number one. this liquor is made from either rice, potatoes or barley. it is similar to arak, a native beverage in indonesia, but way less alcoholic, which makes it a nice beverage to sip anytime without getting hammered. i only wish i could read the labels, because i like sake and shochu very much, and other options are beer, which is too cold to drink right now, and wine, which can get tedious. shochu and sake can also be extremely affordable.

now we are listening to the newest finds by jeff at some music stores, japanese soundtrack music from the 60s, the new supersnazz, fifty taiken, a band recommended by tommy ramone, a rare cornell campbell (rare reggae crooner from the 70s) and some king brothers, and funky instrumental music from the 70s of japanese girl gang movies which came with a book.

i think the next plans are to go back to the czechoslovakian wireless internet place with great food, then to aoyama to show jeff the weird shops, bars, and head shops i found on my journeys on saturday. more later!

from rock star to rock bottom...and back

so katsu accompanied me on sunday on the trains to the narita airport that is not in tokyo, but in chiba. it takes about 2 hours by train, car, or limo bus, but the cheapest way to go, of course, is by train. and i was glad again to have katsu with me because it's very confusing when it's time to switch trains. you first have to get on the nightmare j.r. shinjuku train and than transfer to another one. however, you have to turn in your j.r. tickets and purchase one of 3 different priced tickets, a local, a limited express, or a skyline express, which costs twice as much and only saves you 15 minutes. so for 1000 yen (around 8.50 plus another 190, a buck 60) it costs ten bucks each way. a taxi would cost around $300 U.S. not a smart way to go unless you enjoy throwing money away. the other difficult part was knowing which terminal to get off the train, because the airport is so huge, there are miles between the terminals, and if you make a mistake, taxi time. taxis are very bad indeed.

lucky jeff got his first taste of shibuya crossing with heavy luggage over shoulder. "how do you know what direction to go?" because people cross in about 10 different directions and somehow it works. after settling, we set off to explore my favorite little area, harajuku. and met people from california who have lived here for 3 years teaching english. we also met fellow chicagoans in the streets, because all the buzz right now is the superbowl. the chicago bears are playing in the superbowl and this is big news indeed! if anyone out there living in tokyo reading this blog knows where we can see the game in real time, please put it on a comment in this blog or email me. i would greatly appreciate it. it will probably air around 8am on NHK monday, feb. 5th.

stupid me left my purse in harajuku and i got all the way home before discovering the mistake, which freaked me because all the money i own was in it as well as several credit cards and i.d. luckily we found it hanging on a coat rack where i left it, all money and cards in tact. another thing that is really amazing about tokyo is usually if you have lost something, people do not usually take it. even money! where i come from, that purse may have been there, but it would surely have been empty. i always notice people leaving bags, purses, wallets and walking outside for a smoke. i like that.
and for the first time in my 9 weeks here, i was a little late for class. about 20 minutes, which horrifies me because i am extremely responsible and hate being late for anything, no yoga for me, but i've actually taken a few days off and it has taken much of the horrible pain in my back and hips away. i will continue this regimen for a few more days. and when i get home, i will not go to a natropathic, massage therapist, reflexologist, acupuncturist, reike healer or a psychic. i am going to northwestern memorial hospital for an m.r.i. and get drugs and cortizone if necessary. because i simply can not take this pain any longer and i've tried everything. this hospital is one of the best in the world, and i recently have blue cross and that is what they take. i am excited about that. now don 't get me wrong, i'm not totally pro western medicine, but after almost 6 years of constant pain, it's a last resort and i refuse to live the rest of my life in pain when i teach, walk, sit and sleep.

monday was jeff's 50th birthday, so katsu and i set up a surprise party at the same place as the last one, with numerous traditional japanese food spread and a special bowl especially for jeff consisting of natto, raw quail egg, seaweed, bonito flakes, and raw salmon chunks. i'm not sure he has ever been happier. 13 people came out to support me and jeff and several even gifted him. i was very touched and i thank all of you reading this who came out to celebrate this important birthday. you all are very sweet people because it meant a real lot to me and especially to jeff, who is a japanophile (a huge fan of all that is japanese).

on monday we went to my favorite udon shop to get curry noodle, but they could not understand what i wanted, so we left and i asked katsu to write it out in kanji for me, so we will try again. instead we ended up in another traditional japanese place i've been wanting to try, and to a czechoslovakian wireless internet place. we tried a staropramen dark, which we've not had before, and was served with 2 huge chunks of brie. we did not know, but it ended up costing 1200yen a piece! yikes!

then off to our place to watch a dvd i bought, called "new york doll-the story of arthur killer kane"-"from rock star to rock bottom...and back". i don't know how many of you are new york dolls fans, but this film actually made me cry. after a few members of the band had died (3) and they only released 2 albums and never received the fame they always deserved, they all went their separate ways. arthur became a mormon and worked in a genealogy library, a job that did not pay well, but he enjoyed very much. and even discovered his long lost father's death through his work. anyhow, every single day of his life he talked about the good old days with the new york dolls, and never gave up the dream of one day reuniting with the remaining members, sylvain sylvain and david johanson. and one day he got a call from morrisy who was hosting in london at the royal festival hall. he wanted arthur to fly out and do the show with a new young drummer and guitar player (replacing johnny thunders and jerry nolan). this was a dream come true for arthur, who was working in this library with cute little old ladies who knew nothing about the new york dolls "we are lucky to be working with a famous rock star!" so the mormon church gave him the 260 bucks to get his bass out of the pawn shop and away he went to rehearse with his old band mates, and after the gig, he went home and felt sick 20 days after, went to the hospital, was diagnosed with leukemia and died 4 days later.
this movie made me very sad in some ways, but also good, because he did not have to suffer with chemotherapy he could never have afforded. and he did fulfill his greatest dream-to one day play with one of the most influential and important bands that ever existed, the new york dolls.

then off to find some food, which is so hard here in tokyo. i decided to try to find daikanyana in the dark. it took a few wrong turns, but i found it, and a line of restaurants, everything from korean, chinese, french, and italian. we opted for the italian, and the owner/waiter spoke flawless english, japanese and italian! what a treat! and ate the most expensive meal i have ever had in japan. and probably the best italian food i've eaten in my life.

that's what i love about tokyo. it never seems to matter what you do, where you go, what you eat. because it's always an adventure and it always ends up being really fun!

if you simply just want his blessing...

this is a blog i have written about a week ago and almost did not publish this, because it is a little controversial, but it is only my opinion, and please do not be offended by what i have to say. but i believe very strongly in these things.

one more month to go. i had another eel gathering for lunch yesterday, mainly to meet another western teacher who is also having a hard time making friends. 5 of us gathered on floor 9 of the tokyu dept. store for charcoal unagi lunch set. and got to know the other new teacher, a recently authorized one who said a lot of interesting things, such as how the authorization does not mean much. she said her only motivation was to simply get guruji's blessing to teach. and prefers the shala in mysore when it's only guruji. i had told her i go to kovalam every year because the yoga is good. and she stumped me by asking what" bad" yoga was. and i'm actually still thinking about that one a day later.

what is "bad" yoga? here's some of my ideas

-when it is taught by teachers who do not practice yoga regularly
-when it is taught by someone who has not practiced at least a few years
-when teachers extort money from the students they teach when they become teachers. i have never had this happen to me, but have heard about it.
-when the only motivating force to teach is money
-when the teachers spread gossip about other teachers to students
-when teachers are too busy performing to notice the students
-when teachers only adjust the bendy and the beautiful
-teachers who elevate themselves above the students
-when the teacher is no longer a student themselves

so this does not really mean "bad yoga" but really, "bad yoga teachers" which can make the yoga bad, or not! the above problems can also show students how the path is not always a positive one. not always a happy and shiny one. because, after all, teachers are human beings and make the same mistakes as everyone else.

we also talked about how much astanga is gossiped about on the internet, and in groups all over the world. how often words are put in sharath's and guruji's mouths. and how it is supposed to be 99% practice and 1% theory. and how tedious many students in mysore can be, talking about their yoga constantly when they're not practicing, talking about their diets, (that one is the worst to me. one of the most boring subjects making one very boring) and weight loss. and body vanity. don't get me wrong. not everyone is like that. but so many are. just do an internet search and read what so many people are talking about. i found a site that contains astanga blogs, i think it's called ashtangi.net and i checked out a few of the blogs. SO exhausting! one girl, who is obsessed with her backbends (so common and i don't know why!) talks only about teachers who can "get results out of my spine". she does not care who it is, and will "try" every single teacher in mysore except the guru! i mean, why go all the way to mysore and study with everyone except the guru? also very common. people don't feel they get enough from the shala, and take 2 or 3 classes from 2 or 3 different teachers daily! and you are required to sign a contract when you go to the shala stating that you will not study with another teacher while in the shala. many people sign it and secretly creep out to all the other teachers, because they get more adjustments. wouldn't it be easier if these people stayed at home and studied with their teachers there? or is it so glamorous to have "studied" in india, regardless of who it is? let me tell you, india is NOT glamorous! and i go each year to study with an italian! because i like lino and his wife tina, and maria paola and serge, and rosanna. but i do not like kovalam. it's basically a western tourist spot with nothing to do and bad shopping. yes, there is the ocean, but it's full of hawkers who will wake you up from sleeping to try to sell you something. and it is filthy.

and i am too much in love with india to stay in one spot for 4 months, i must always see something new when i go there, which is why i haven't been back to mysore. but i began to learn some things about this yoga, about myself when i spent 2 weeks with sharath in australia right before tokyo. and i am intrigued. and guruji is getting old. and soon we won't have the choice to study with guruji. and to me, there's nothing worse than going there just to get that piece of paper, because it does not make you a good teacher. just go there because you want to. and make it personal. and if you simply just want his blessing and it's coming from your heart, than that's beautiful.

what is "bad" yoga

apologies for not writing for so long. ever since i moved i have not had access to internet as easily. so it's been tough, but i will write when i can.

i had an interesting eel lunch again on friday. a new western teacher got to asking questions, i also asked. i told her that i like to go to kovalam to study with lino because it's good yoga. and she stumped me by asking, "what is bad yoga?" and i have been thinking about it ever since. i know what bad yoga teachers are. and i can make a list of the things that are "bad" but i can not make a list of "bad" yoga!

saturday i roamed tokyo alone for the last time for 8 hours. i roamed in parts of harajuku i have not seen before, running into a band that was playing air guitar style near the station, the lead singer doing karaoke to their own music. they were promoting their live shows this weekend. they were good. j-pop. the name was fuzz. i did not really care that they weren't really playing. it was charming. then i noticed large groups of people, families, going towards this huge forest. so i followed them, and in a clockwise direction. all sorts of things we passed. like dozens of kegs of old sake. and then old french wine casks. the emperor meiji had formed a relationship with the french and were gifted with french wine. almost everything is in kanji, so i don't have a clue where i am, or it's importance. so i just keep following the crowds. so many beautiful trees. many ladies decked out in kimono. passing a museum, a souvenir shop and cafe, finally i approach the massive shinto shrine. it is completely awesome, i wash my hands like everyone else, do not make a fortune, and do not throw coins into the water in front of the shrine, like in asakusa. i am blown away by this place, kimono clad ladies are singing, serious monks are hanging out. it is not my place, yet it is pretty powerful. after i leave, i take out my lonely planet tokyo book and learn that this is the meiji-jingu shrine, from 1920, tokyo's grandest shinto shrine. it was destroyed in WWII, but was rebuilt authentically in 1958. there are 100,000 trees that are said to have been donated by visitors all over japan, and the place is on 175 acres of land. it's technically in omote-sando, which butts up against harajuku.

then off to all sorts of weird tiny streets, window shopping only, and stopped for lunch at shanti, a strange curry soup place. i decided i would try to find the spiral building, a mall and gallery place that is famous for it's architecture. i had been there before, but was just following someone. i did find it, and everything that was there before was gone. they change everything constantly. but i did get another orange and clove candle that i'm completely addicted to. very expensive. and trying to find internet, cause since i've moved, i do not have it anymore. funny, tokyo has very few internet cafes, and even less wi-fi. but alas, i came upon another spiral building called the KDDI designing studio, at the top was internet. after wasting some time online, i spiraled down instead of using the elevator, and heard live reggae inspired music. on the ground floor was a band called rock-a-trench playing for television and i had a prime viewing spot. they were fun, and free. good guitar player, keyboards doubling with trombone, bass, drums and acoustic. lucky me, i thought. 2 bands in one day for free.

then off to see what aoyama has. lots of expensive shops, but interesting nevertheless. there is SO much to see in tokyo, it's absolutely mindblowing. but lonely! how funny such a crowded place can be so lonely. but jeff joins me tomorrow, so all of that will be history. unfortunately i'm jaded from being here for 2 months. hopefully he will spark some new excitement into this place. for i am weary.

girly food

i finally did it. i saw it when i first got here. i thought about it. i wondered about it. there were lines around the block for them. it intrigued and intimidated me.

japanese crepes.

i talked katsu into joining me for one today. at first he said no way, cause they are "girly". something that is interesting about japan is that food is man food or ladies food. i have been eating pocky for the last couple weeks, a popular snack food, basically a cracker stick dunked in chocolate, or strawberry, or the limited edition strawberry white chocolate mousse, OR the one i saw yesterday, MAN pocky! bittersweet. sweet sugary treats are meant for ladies. and with the pink girly wrapper on the crepe, watching katsu eat it, i finally understood. so he must eat his "girly" sweets in private. so funny to me! and any place that specializes in meat items is considered man food. and ramen, one of my most favorites, is also MAN food. we pondered marketing black crepe holders for men. hmm...

the reason i waited so long to try these is because usually the descriptions are in kanji and there are hundreds to choose from, i was embarassed. we both had the chocolate mille-feuille crepe. which was stuffed with great chocolate ice cream, chocolate sauce, whip cream, white chocolate, and home made pie (?). you could get bananas stuffed inside also for 50yen more. it was then i understood the crepe frenzy. so good, so different, so bold, so unique. i will never be the same. you can even purchase crepe memorabilia. i will return to purchase the socks. 5 pairs for 1000 yen. yes, 5 pairs. cause you can never have too many crepe socks.

back to yoga. teaching is going well, classes are packed. many students are making significent progress in their practices. it is inspiring to see. backbend drop back fear is melting away. twists are getting easier. pinca mayurasana is happening. breathing sounds good. and everyone seems happy. i am also happy. the second workshop was as good as the first. the numbers were the same. two more to go-one here and one in nikko. and i am moving on thursday. i am happy about that because i will be much closer to the studio and can do a full practice. but will sorely miss host mom's cooking.

my practice is a bit sad, difficult, painful. but i do what i can and always feel better. it's much easier these days silencing that little voice inside my head that tells me i'm never working hard enough. that's the trick. and you can only do this after practicing for a long time. it's such a hard thing for most people to do less. harder than doing more. much harder. society puts a lot of pressure on humans to succeed. yoga is one of the only places that we do not need this pressure. it's OK to do less! it's OK to forward bend without dropping back. and it's definitely OK to do just primary or even half primary when you have had some time off yoga. and if something is painful in a bad way, lay off! your body will thank you if you put this perspective into practice. it's ahimsa. we must always remember that it is not a good thing to cause pain and violence to our bodies.
to do this is the real success in yoga.
it's not about advancing, or perfecting. because the path is endless and there is nowhere to go anyhow.

images of tokyo

so many things come to mind when i think of this place. tokyo. this place i feel like i live now. comfy, interesting, fun, intimidating, playful, strange, lonely, colorful, tasty, wild, crazy, outrageous, dark, mysterious, tokyo.

cosplay/onigiri/donburi/ladies moonday/fashion/ramen/shoju/
sweetpotato/manju/sweet beans/jpop/kinoko/neon/giant televisions/
rice/udon/arigato gozai mas/mochi mochi/
thigh high boots/hats/pachinko/down/karaoke/skinny streets/
commuter trains/anime/hot stone/hot springs/manga/go/
vending machines/kimono/plushies/hello kitty/bamboo/unagi/
san/chan/sen/soba/tofu/fortunes/china/sanrio/korea/deep tub/
futon/octapus/oyster/clam/art/police box/bento box/
sushi/sake/chopsticks/wood/kanji/caligraphy/pens/kimono/
stationary/shinto/buddha/recycling/warmth/surprise/art/
earthquake/shogatsu/uniforms/sushi/sumo/oden/nabe/
botan/musaharu fukuyama

those words are tokyo to me. not japan, because i am only in tokyo, but that is what will always remind me of tokyo when i return to my home.

boro-boro doro-doro

today i got my booty out of bed and into the yoga room, atlas in hand with plans of finding a couple of places without the help of anyone. i feel bad depending on others, as i hope it is not a chore for them, but maybe it is. post yoga coffee and my atlas of detailed maps, i navigated my plan. first stop-the watari museum of contemporary art . a cutting edge museum, it showcased 2 artists, both living in brooklyn, one japanese and one american. they are both street subculture artists with a flair for the extreme. misaki kawai displayed a massive installation called "space house" that reached all the way up 3 floors of the building. it contained all sorts of dolls made from scraps with paper cut out faces like the beatles. there were many rooms, a karaoke room, a living room with a giant working television and sunken pool, many pets, and many compartments with people and animals watching tv, drinking, dancing, etc. it had several arms extending out with other smaller cars connected. i took some photos, but that was before noticing the "no photo" sign, so i will not post them out of respect for the artist. it was very fun and colorful. the second artist, taylor mckimens, reminded me of crumb. his figures were melting, and he is very much into deterioration. his installation, "gum, sweat, and tupperware," consisted of a melting man wearing tupperware on his head and huge chewing gums. one of his dolls is posted above. it was outside of the museum, so i figured it was ok to post it. the store in the museum, on sundays, had a great selection of art books, tshirts, and limited edition andy warhol watches. and one of the largest collections of postcards. and once you pay to get in, the ticket is good for unlimited visits. so i will go back next month when they change the exhibit.

i was proud to have found it on my own. it was on killer dori! funny name. and back the other direction to takeshita dori street to try and find the "rock and roll" museum. strolling down this street in harajuku, i realized that i had not really seen harajuku, as i thought. this street was packed with crazy cheap fun stores, costume places, tons of crepe stalls, and brightly dressed "frooties"-the anti fashion people who dress extravigantly. the peacocks of tokyo. i wandered through the backstreets, noticing a good sized jamaican population (i just don't get the connection) and stumbled to the place i was looking for. it turned out to be an elvis store for hardcore rockabilly fans, filled with elvis memorabilia, most for sale. i was expecting a museum of several kinds of rock and roll. oh well. was interesting anyhow, with a big elvis statue in front of the building.

the streets began getting packed, and it was time to go. it has taken me 2 months to have the courage to find places alone. i have a decent atlas, am getting a bit used to the trains now, and feel like i can do more of this. but it's still always better with friends.
damn it's hard to make friends here!
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electric city, anime, tokyo city dome, and art

another stellar post yoga high. intended to blog yesterday, but was wore out from adventures, lots of walking, too hot bath and hot udon cooked by host mom. put me in a trance with all sorts of weird dreams, including friend having strange pcp/coke habit! "but i only snort 6 spoons a day!" what?? i have NO idea where that came from. i haven't even been watching tv or movies, so i don't know the influence of a dream like that. she also stole my man! who was dancing naked on the bed in a high rise building in tokyo for all to watch! dreams are funny, indeed. but i'm not the kind of person who tries to figure out the meaning of life through them, because i believe they are just stimulus in gumbo form, and your subconscious trying to figure it all out. the stimulus comes from dna, life, tv, other people's stories and the imagination. you can choose to find meaning in them just like a piece of art, but there is no real answer, so why bother? whenever i travel, i have bizarre dreams, often in blazing colors, especially in india, which makes sense because that is the strongest stimulus over there-color to the extreme.

yesterday's excursion was fun. after teaching, zen and i had some coffee at the local starbucks (i know, i boycott them, but sadly, they have the best coffee in tokyo and the only place that has regular american coffee with real cream-i hate lattes) and the place was filled with obnoxious loud westerners. we scoped out the day-onto the ginza line and into akihabara-land of electronics and anime. i had never seen so many of these stores in my life. unfortunately i am not schooled in anime, so it did not have the same affect on me as someone who is a fan. i could not count the amount of anime stores that there were. and so big, colorful and crazy. almost scarey. i have to admit many of these furry cute giant "things" can be very scarey indeed.

we began our journey at the tokyo anime centre, and was quite glad zen was there to lead the way. i don't know how anyone finds anything when they are always hiding on an upper floor in any number of high rises. we began to look inside when an american with a dopey grin on his face asked us if we had seen the akihabara theatre. i thought he was asking for directions, but he looked like he just had a good massage, and was telling us to go there. oh, ok. it was the 3D animation centre. we went in and they gave us the glasses. and a tour in japanese. we explored all the latest technologies in this type of technology. there was a 3 dimensional kitchen that looked like the cooks were inside the flatscreen making food in the neighboring restaurant, a giant map of tokyo that you can turn, zoom and navigate just by barely touching the screen, all in matrix style 3D, models being made and put into the ovens, and the coolest, an electronic hologram of a girl behind a desk that you could touch and she reacts, change her clothes and also her language. this was cool and creepy, because the future is bright for entertainment. talk about scarey movies that are holograms that can actually react to the audience! wow.
there wasn't a lot more except life size models of all the latest anime figures, drawings, and lots of things to buy.

we went to explore the streets, so many anime and manga (comics) shops, many of the hentai type (comic porn) and many floors housing little sexy anime outfits to wear for your partner, as well as many dvds, etc. interesting, indeed. and an entirely differnt world from the one i am familiar with. i was too shy to go into the electronics stores because it was just overkill. ipod nano for 2800 yen! (thats about 23 bucks!) so if your in the market for electronics, this is definitely the place to go. we went to a cool store that had a massive key chain collection, many sushi ones that looked totally real, and gyoza! but were in the 20 dollar price range, so i took a pass. in fact, i did not spend a penny on anyting excpet for food. zen suggested a tandon place, japanese fried fast food. similar to tempura, sitting on top of rice. simple, fast, cheap, delicious. and dozens of businessmen sucking it down in 10 minutes flat (really-i timed some of them).

we walked to the nicholai cathedral, a russian orthodox church constructed in the late 19th century, with a magnificent onion dome. i always find it strange to find catholic churches in the most unlikely of places. and on to the tokyo wonder site, which was closed upon arriving until mid afternoon. i was interested in the giant parachute carnival rides in the horizon and so we went on to tokyo dome (the big egg), home of the yomiuri giants, the most popular baseball team in japan. surrounding the dome is tokyo city amusement park, with rides such as a standard roller coaster, water boat coaster, massive ferris wheel, and the 13 doors haunted house, where you are given a key to open a door and discover a murder. the place is very kitch, with really scarey baseball restaurants specializing in giant racks of ribs and nachos-the japanese version you do not want to touch. then back to tokyo wonder site, a gallery promoting new art exhibits. we saw an instillation called "awesome" by dasuke nagaoaka of a film of a hand drawing and erasing a man sitting at a desk, with a mural of the man on the walls, and his books and desk in the room. it was very interesting and made me wanting more art. the art here is so interesting and different from what's at home, i want to explore modern museums, one called watari museum of contemporary art outside of shibuya, if i have the courage to try to find it alone. there's a warhol exhibit there right now (!!)

tragedy or opportunity?

i feel a bit dry in the creatively today. if i don't have that need to unload, it's hard to blog because it can be as much of a chore reading this as it is writing. but thoughts were flowing through my head in a reflective kind of way today. i guess i got to thinking about what i am learning from this experience, because i've spent a lot of time away from home. tokyo is just an extension of the trip, as many of you know, many of you don't know i spent 6 weeks in australia immediately before coming to tokyo, the grand total when it's all done is close to 5 months. australia was many things to me. i was in a teacher's cocoon for the first month, which is like an intensive, but different from other intensives i've taken before. it involved lots of pranayama, fasting, chanting, sutra study, unloading, writing, and other forms of hardcore spiritual development, leaving one quite vunerable and naked. in the midst of it all, i had lost the mysore program i started back in chicago. via e-mail, but we won't get into that too deeply. i was building it over 2 years and it was doing very well. so the sting was a bit severe. it had me questioning many things, such as my career and my purpose on the planet. and i was very depressed and angry this was done so far away and not in person. and that it seemed no one was standing up for me. so i got to feeling alone, the cleansing that had taken place destroyed by a single human in an extremely vindictive way. and my position given to my partner, who must stay because of money. sharath had come and i took classes with him for 2 weeks, my very first led intermediate classes. it was extremely difficult to get out of bed and muster any kind of enthusiasm because of how i was feeling. i just could not shake the depression, i began to lose faith.

than like a bolt of lightning, i arrived in tokyo and everything changed. i was thrust into teaching, teaching mysore for a lot of hours, to a lot of people i have never before met. whose language i could not speak. and i stepped up to it. faced it full on without fear or reservations. and began to gain confidence in myself once again. and began to forgive myself. and see the situation as an opportunity instead of a tragedy. i have learned a lot from teaching in this way. i am still the same teacher, the same person. nothing has changed, only the space in which i will teach in. and it's only a room, only a space. that's all we really need as astangis. i have learned not to expect too much from students. i have learned not to get attached. to let go. and to hold tight to my self respect. this has helped me grow a great deal and realize that i have the power to do what i do anywhere i please. which is why i will have my own space upon returning to chicago. i have learned a lot about how the studio over here is run, how it started, what is possible, how much hard work it is. lucky for me i am not afraid of hard work. because that's what it takes. four walls, a floor, and work. and i am in a better place now. and i now realize whose loss it really is. because, as dena said to me when this happened, "they can't take away your light."

i was a musician for many years before becoming a yoga teacher. and a part of me still lives in that world-the artists world. and my studio will be able to reflect this. i can cater to my own kind, the starving artists. i have a lot to offer them, and can use the space for gallery as well. yoga opens your creative forces, and artists can benefit greatly. and i am surrounded by good people who do care, about yoga, and about me. and i am very fortunate.

i just want to take this experience, this energy that tokyo has given me, and fuse it with what i already have. i think the results will be original. and over time, i hope, successful.

on a lighter note, tomorrow i get a new tour guide, zen, to take me to akihabara, land of electric town, tokyo anime center, wonder site, and the transportation museum. oh boy!

iggy pop: rock and roll yoga man?

it was a sunny holiday monday today. the holiday, seijin-no-hi is celebrated the second monday in january. it's the "coming-of-age" day. females turning 20 years old today wear traditional kimono, most of the males wear black suits. they get together in packs, many were shopping as i also was, and many were getting ready to party, because they are now old enough to drink and smoke. i enjoyed looking at the pretty kimonos in the streets and on the trains. much like the beautifu saris in india. such amazing colors and patterns, so confusingly put together. i can't figure out how they fold and tie them. and they have to take little tiny steps cause they are very tight around the ankles. and wear sandles with socks. all of the girls were sporting fashionable fur stoles with them to ward off the cold. it's such an interesting clash of styles. and so many people out and about, most everyone having the day off. my mysore class, which is usually full around 7:30, started to pack in at 8ish, everyone sleeping in on a rare occasion.

i got lucky today and got to meed katzu again, my favorite person in tokyo. he is such an easy hang, good to talk to, a good listener, extremely patient-waiting outside of the boutiques while i scouted for goods. we walked to a very cool area close to shibuya called daikanyama. katsu knows the kind of shopping i like, lots of small stores, many used and vintage shops, not the big department stores much of tokyo is infested with. so this hood was very interesting for me. half of the shops were out of my price range, but so many of the buildings are interesting to just look at, it really did not matter. there's a "blythe" store there, selling dozens of blythe dolls and accessories, many blythe kimonos, etc. and i was very tempted to buy, but after investing in a sugar bunny plushie, it seemed a bit embarassing.

and off to lunch at an amazing thai/vietnamese restaurant called "monsoon" for a set lunch of vietnamese spring rolls, shrimp toast, shumai, and pho. they were blasting bollywood music, which i found odd since there weren't any indian dishes on the menu.

then off to 3 different "rock" shops, similar to the one we went to in tokyo tower, selling memorabilia, like osbourne family bobbleheads, slipknot backpacks, sex pistols coasters and fridge magnets, and large sized singing freddie mercury dolls. these places have many rock t-shirts, and i am pretty picky, but i found a good iggy and the stooges t-shirt. and wonder if it's in poor taste to teach yoga in it. i mean, iggy looks like he does yoga. he does a pretty good urdva danurasana while singing "i wanna be your dog".

speaking of dogs, i counted no less than a dozen doggie boutiques. just click here for details. even a restaurant that has a special "set" menu for your dog, including snacks and desert.

yes, it's good to be a dog in tokyo.

i can kiss babies and scale tokyo tower!

today is the official last day of xmas according to tradition. i read it on my friend satya cacananda's blog. it's funny, because i was raised catholic and have celebrated xmas my whole life and i never knew this.

ok-can i just take a moment to thank the universe, siva, god and all my awesome teachers (dena, lino, suddha, manju, guruji, sharath, david and simi roche, gwendoline hunt, amy treciokas & cara jepsen) and whoever else is responsible for leading me down the yoga path? i woke early today, saturday (usually my day off) and ventured into the yoga studio. open up my stubborn little mind and forced myself to do my intermediate practice. the moment i entered that room, my mood lifted right up. and there was zen, set my mat up next to him, and had another happy but horribly painful practice. i would hate to see my grimacing face, especially on the 4 killers (for me), eka pada through titti, and everything that involves a lotus. i have to practice the ultimate in what lino has always said, "don't think. just do." it's simple and direct. as painful as it all was, i feel steller when it's all over. and right now, post yoga, i feel like i can kiss babies and scale tokyo tower!

*tangent time* a tribute to my teachers

there are snippets of spiritual advice passed onto me by many of my teachers, which i would like to share with you:

*dena-they can't take away your light (about being fired from moksha in the middle of an intensive 10,000 miles away)
*lino-don't think, just do (getting up from a backbend and everything else that is difficult)
*suddha-give it to god. (about teaching yoga) always expect the unexpected (about india)
*gwendoline hunt-the more you do this yoga, the more you will understand it
*amy treciokas-yoga does not change you. it just makes you more of what you really are (enhanced personalities)
*sharath-anyone can do astanga. except for lazy people (at conference in byron bay this year and astanga new york movie)
*guruji-mind your own mula bandha! (a snippet told by manju when asked if guruji taught muslims)

it's pouring rain again, and always when i am energized and have many plans that involve scaling the tokyo landscapes in search of a healer for my hips, more bath bombs from lush, skirts on sale, hats, and food. the rain won again, and i ended up in a nice internet cafe where it's free if you buy something. great coffee and food, and close to my future house in shibuya-i move in a week or so. then i went to get those bath bombs, but my bones got cold. turned around, and that was it for me. but not before visiting the ...

tobacco and salt museum!

6 floors of the history of tobacco and salt in japan! i parked my umbrella in the locked umbrella parking outside the building. all of the stores have parking spots for them, many provide long skinny baggies, too. paid my 100 yen (85 cents) and locked everything in my locker for another 100 yen-which was returned to me upon retrieving my goods! my only complaint was that everything was in kanji, so i had to try to figure all this out for myself. the first floor had educational tvs, artifacts, and interesting souveniers to buy, such as a collection of vintage matchboxes, many types of salt, some in rock form, others ground, vintage japanese smoking kits, pipes, postcards, pens, stuff like that. up i went to the next floor, which had all kinds of smoking devices from the 16th century, which is when japan was introduced to tobacco voyagers (spanish?) who got the tobacco from the mayan indians in south america. we have ashtrays, old lighters, pouches, cigarette holders, hookahs, pipes. here you can sit down to the more than half a dozen places and thumb through giant panels with old tobacco wrappers and cigarette cartons.

the next floor had a lifesize exhibition of a japanese family making their own cigs. husband grinding the leaves, wife rolling, child stuffing into boxes. i noticed that the smoking aparatases have not changed much. this floor emphasizes the pleasures and relaxation of smoking, smoking in kabuki, privatization of the leaf in the meiji era, the state monopoly through 1985, and the new age of tobacco. here, we have an installation of 80s cigs, 90s cigs, and the ones from the new millenium. names like sakura, harmony, siesta, peace, frontier, neo, bitter valley, golden bat, it is?, cabin, and my favorite which comes in a neon multi pink mondrian inspired box-bevel fina shineberry!

around the corner was a makeshift japanese living room from 1970, complete with an old color tv playing various vintage japanese commercials! cool! suntory, toyota, candy, and my favorite, U.F.O. noodles!
a video showed how tobacco plants are grown and produced. quite interesting, actually.

the next couple of floors were about salt. these were less interesting to me. the first thing you see is a four foot rock salt in a glass box. and many others, displayed like crystals. they are brown and blue, white, red and orange. you can watch videos of salt miniing and how it's made. and microscopes with salt dna. the top floor was a changing art gallery dealing with the said subjects, including a box you could sniff something familiar, but not sure what it was.

it was time to go, but i wanted to use the bathroom. how happy was i to discover old school flushable squat pottys! just like india, but more state-of-the-art! the highlight of my day.

that "lost in translation" feeling never leaves

my friend mindy has explained this whole japanese new years thing to me, and i'm glad because it all seemed so secretly frantic, everyone doing their own thing with great intent, me completely puzzled by this entire cleaning business.
"OSHOGATSU is really a big deal to most Japanese. Did anyone tell you the reason we cleaned up everywhere at the end of the year? In Shintoism, a new year is a kind of spirit (god) and we must welcome it. It'll give us a chance to renew stuff and energy. We decorate gates and entrances with KADOMATSU and SHIMEKAZARI so that the spirit can come visit us, and we offer KAGAMI MOCHI inside the house to New Year. However, New Year can visit only the places where people cleaned."
i'm glad i know this now, and am certainly hoping i have not ruined any chances of the "spirit" entering my host house. i'm not sure if my room was clean enough. i really wish this was explained to me. i would hate to be blamed for any ill luck in 2007.

my friend katsu gave me the blog to one of the american teacher's who came to tokyo to teach earlier last year and it's probably the best and funniest blogs i have ever read. leaping lanka . it's particularly amusing to me because he also spent 3 months in tokyo and many of his experiences were similar to mine. one is the total amazement at the machinery, including the washer/dryer combo. i have been confused since i arrived about japanese appliances. the first host i had had a washer that washed and also dryed the clothes in the same machine, with the press of one button! wow! ( of course i managed to screw that up) and a table top dishwasher-mini washer, as well as a combo microwave/toaster oven, the "bells and whistles" toilet-which was my very first japanese experience-one with several buttons, all in kanji. one for warming seat, one for raising/lowering seat, one to clean back side, one for cleaning front, but what i was mostly interested in was the flush one. i had to call in my host to show me how. turns out it's a handle on the side just like anything else. this was the first time i had that "lost in translation" feeling. don't even know how to use the toilet, can't read the buttons, i'm in big trouble. and, of course, all the little buttons for the bath tub. one for temperature, one to turn it on and fill, one to indicate how high you want the water. the host i'm staying with right now has a tub alarm that tells you when it's time to enter, so you can go about your business until the bath is ready for you. screwed that up, too, leaving on heater without water. oops. and pasting instructions next to tub so as not to make mistake again. which i have already, but everyone's too nice to tell me. japanese homes do not have heaters like we do in the US. we have forced air or radiators. they have "air conditioners" which are small boxes located near the ceiling only in the bedrooms. there's a remote, in kanji, for temperature control. i was so intimidated by this in my first host house that i just slept without heat, in a hat and down comforter, fully dressed. even the water handles are backwards. you have to lift up to turn it off.

another observation we had in common was the tokyo power nappers everywhere. so many people sleeping, with full snore, mostly on the train, but also in cafes and restaurants. just "out" every single age group, all walks of life. i also have noticed every day people running. all kinds of people running, old ladies, kids, businesmen, students, everyone. running. and i always wonder, "where are they running to? and why?" of course no one walks up the escalators. they ride them. now wouldn't they save some time if they also ran up those as well? curious.

the cell phone phenomenon is quite prevalent here, too. you are not allowed to talk on them on the subways, but people constantly text message or check emails on them. i've heard you can also pay for things with your phone, like it's a credit card.

we also both noticed the hordes of people still partying outside of the yoga studio when we are going in to practice at 5am. lots of noise, which usually stops around 7am. and always lots of sirens going off. when the fire trucks and police cars come through, its kind of a soft siren with a person yelling something through a speaker. i wonder what they are saying. "get the f..out of the way!"

back to work today, i really hate to call it "work" cause that's such a negative word. it felt good to be back. i love doing what i do. but practice was so sad. i'm SO glad that i have learned to let go of that, because i could ramble on and on about it and really, it's never very interesting to talk about it. i'm tight and sore from walking around tokyo for hours and hours for 3 days in a row. my hip hurts more than ever. i'm starting to be concerned. 30 trips to the chiropractor did nothing. do i need drugs or cortizone? i'm starting to wonder.

and back to my favorite food paradise, the shibuya food show. it's so exciting there. but since i'm bored and fascinated with all that is rice, i WAY over ate. and i hear mom preparing a meal right now, with my stomach crying "why you do this to me?"
i confess. i ate a dozen shu mai. and a rice bun. and 2 salads with shrimp (god they were good) and 2 cheese mauris. these are my new friends. little round moist cake-like sweets stuffed with cream cheese, the kind they use in cheesecake. seriously addictive.

i think i am trying to gain weight. but why? maybe so i have something to blog about? yeah, that's it.

yellow shoes

katzu and i have much in common; many tattoos, piercings, ever changing colored hair, sensitive, shy, and today we both had yellow shoes. he is a very sweet person serving as my tour guide at the moment. he spent 3 whole days showing me around tokyo, and i appreciate it deeply. today we went to ueno, where there are many museums and a zoo. we opted to forget the museums, because the lines were very long, and went to the zoo, which was cheap and not as crowded. katzu said he is afraid of animals, but i insisted he learn to "become one" with them, since he has a tiger and a dragon on his body. so he made the plunge. this zoo is where the internationally famous ling ling, the giant panda lives. the highlight of the zoo, the gem of tokyo. so we waited in line to visit this legendary bear, and what an anti-climatic experience it was. ling ling can't be more than 4 or 5 feet tall and was sleeping, sprawled out on a ledge in the sun. some giant panda indeed.
there were pink flamingos, penguins, and the best ones, the polar bears with their own ice cage and waterfalls. i always thought polar bears were white, but these bad boys were brown. well, tan, actually, and quite irritated and bored. after awhile, i feel sorry for zoo animals and always get depressed upon leaving. i think i'm done with zoos.

we found an average indian restaurant and sat down to a curry meal and noticed the staff kept apologizing to katzu "coming, sir, coming!" i guess this happens all the time to him, because he has the traditional japanese yakuza style tattooing, and those guys get treated with respect. did you know people, both men and women, who are tattooed are not allowed to use spas, hot springs or the man capsule sleep chambers? such a bummer for me. who knew? not that i was going to use the capsules, but hot springs would have been nice.

speaking of yakuza, we stopped in crazy crowded freaky shinjiku on the way home. i made katzu take me to the ghetto side of town, with the strip clubs, prostitutes and other seedy folk, and to my delight, pointed out a pile of 20something young yakuza boys. none of them sporting the infamous "punch perm" which i guess i so, last year.

if i was a dog, i think i would like to live in tokyo

having a public blog is a bit risky in some ways. you never know what stranger from who knows where decides to contact you. recently the interesting and quite intriguing one has been a "rocket scientist" who claims to be a "sorcerer" from toronto, whose english is not good (?), first baiting me with compliments, then threatening to destroy my ego, and later, just pounding me with insults. and i wonder. is this someone rotting in jail? perhaps an old flame seeking revenge? or just someone with way too much time on their hands? i mean, dude, get a life.

anyhow, today we saw another interesting neighborhood, shimokitsazowa. supposedly trendy. very small, lots of small stores (which i like) and clubs known internationally to the hip music going set,(much of it punk) such as the loft, live house, and club 251. many stores were closed, cause they celebrate new years here for a week, but there were hundreds of people in shibuya waiting on the ground to get into the department stores at 7am this morning for the big sales and the grab bags, which are very popular. all of the stores have secret bags which are supposed to be worth more than you pay, filled with stuff you don't know about. some as high as 10,000 yen and more! (85 US bucks up). there would be no way i could spend that kind of money for something i could not look at. but they seem to love it here. and it does sound fun.

i also noticed that the small dogs were as well dressed as the people. and i met a little daushund in a brown hoodie down vest. cutest thing i've ever seen. and as the day went on, i saw many more petite pups clad in the latest down, wool and even fur! apparently doggies are very well dressed in tokyo. and there are dozens of stores catering to this need. all the dogs are small, because the apartments are also small. it makes sense. but there aren't any homeless animals here at all, which is a good thing. if i was a dog, i think i would like to live in tokyo.

adam rocks tokyo

today katzu took me to roppongi. we waited at the bus station and the specially designed bus came completely decorated with the work of takashi murakami . now this was particularlly exciting for me, because my friend adam scott , who is a very prominent up and coming artist in chicago, had one of his pieces bought by this famous artist. adam's work is amazing and i've been teaching him & his wife yoga for a couple of years in exchange for his artwork. he is also in a great rock band called the peelers , as he is performing in the picture. rock on, adam, rock on!

we began at roppongi hills mori tower, which overlooks the entire city of tokyo which you can view at the top. the coolest thing is the tokyo tower, which is a replica of the eiffel tower and is painted red and white. that was our next stop, because we wanted to go to the wax museum to see jimmy page in his original pants. so we cabbed it to the tower-roppongi is kind of hilly and curly, so it's hard to find your way around. it kind of reminds me of san francisco. and entered the totally unflattering tokyo wax museum. we got lots of laughs in there, because the museum is very old, long before they perfected the wax figures, so everyone looks horrible, but horrible in a good way. we began with basic hollywood stars, madonna, greta garbo, marilyn monroe, marlon brando & james dean, jodie foster, in through the historical figures, mother theresa, gandhi, tom edison, albert einstein, and on into the "torture never stops" room with chinese water torture, "the rack", "the wheel" and, of course the ever popular iron maiden, all with a soundtrack of a song playing "the torture never stops" on into the full-on room sized "last supper" and into the rock room. hendrix, beatles, various german bands i've never heard of, zappa...but where's jimmy page? we came all the way here to see jimmy page! "jimmy is under maintenence" "he is being re-waxed". the memorabilia rock store was awesome, selling collectables such as a jimi hendrix incense burner, with jimi on knees in his classic guitar burning posture, you insert the incense into the burning guitar, the sex pistols "never mind the bollocks" coffee mugs, an impressive collection of beatles dolls, tshirts, stickers and other very odd collectables. the large flat screen was playing old ac/dc concert footage that i could have watched in it's entirety. just watching the crowd back then was so awesome.

i talked katzu into walking to shibuya from tokyo tower. i explained to him that i am a tourist, and i like walking because it's the best way to see things. it did take awhile, but we made it, tokyo getting darker and more cool looking. tokyo looks best in the dark because of it's extravagent neon landscape and massive building televisions usually showing the newest japanese rap artists. and searched for the cheapest chinese that was open on new years. alas, we settled in for a chinese spread, and parted ways. tomorrow we discover shimo kitsazawa, a hip place i've been told, and daikanyama. tokyo is huge. looking down at it from above really gave me a sense of that. it can not be seen in a week. or a month. or 3 months. i have 7 more weeks to try, though.