reality is never what it seems to be

it's always interesting to me to see that things are never what they seem at first glance. it's easy to perceive moments a certain way and later find out the reality is nothing close to the perception. and as many times this happens to me, it continues to surprise me, throw me off. whether it's getting to know people, or trying to understand a culture quite foreign to your own, or expectations of situations. i know this all sounds a bit vague, but i would rather not reveal the details of these situations publicly. one thing for sure, people are rarely what you think they are. i think most of us hide behind a persona. and the ones who do not really affect you quite deeply, almost in a spiritual way, because it's so hard to find. i often feel like people are only pretending to like me. and it would be much easier if they were a bit more confrontational, as much as that can hurt, at least you know where you stand, and it's easier that way. i like people who say how they feel, what they really think. not pretend to be a certain way only to say quite differently behind your back, only to find these truths out later from someone else, yet the person does not have the guts to say it to your face. most of us are guilty of this. but the ones who really impress me and ultimately become my role models are my friends or "friends",or acquaintances, who put it right out there in black and white without hesitation. my main yoga teachers have done as this as well as a few strangers and friends and even though it stings, it has made me a better person, a changed person, and way more respectful of them. and i really appreciate it, criticism is a very good thing, as long as it is constructive and not done to intentionally harm, although you sure do take your chances when you speak your mind, good or bad. we all have opinions and if open minded, there should not be any hard feelings. how i wish the world were like this. everything would be so much easier. because i feel that there is far too much drama that is created, it is completely unnecessary and a waste of energy.
i apologize if i lost many of you with my philosophy. it's just how i'm feeling at the moment.